Blanca's Journal

I'm gonna be a mama!
Well, on Friday, Jan 18th I found out I was pregnant. I didn't expect to be, I had an extra pregnancy test from when I thought I was back in Dec. It had 2 tests in the box, a two for one deal, how sad is that? So I was all, hmmm I'm just gonna take this to get rid of it in my room. My fiance Isaac told, "its gonna be so weird if you come back and say you are pregnant" So I went downstairs took the test and saw one line appear. I was thinking WAIT that line isn't suppose to appear there so while I was reading the directions to second line appear. My eyes grew big and I was like well, ok, oh my god. I went upstairs and told Isaac "well, you are going to be a daddy" he just stared at me while I had a shit grin on my face. Then we both said at the same time "i'm scared!" Now, I am happy that I have a little one on the way but it setbacks all my plans for my life. Not only that, my father has pretty much disowned me, not going to help pay for the wedding and my mother doesn't want to pay for it all. Isaac's family doesn't have that much, I would never expect them to pay. So at the same time I'm happy but depressed. I will get into this more later.

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Just listening to the 5:00 News..blah

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